Sin is the sacrifice on the alters of our own self sufficiency. Fornication, greed, lust, pride, etc are what we do to make ourselves feel love, feel worth, feel powerful. Once the sacrifice is made, we feel awesome. But after that high wears off, we seek another sacrifice. We wonder why we have multiple sexual partners because we are always needing something new, something fresh that will sate us. When that man or woman no longer wants us, we often have children that serve as an idol to the sacrifice we made to and for ourselves. We seek more money, better jobs, bigger cars and our self-altars are so full, but always require more. I am finding the more I turn away from self-sufficency and sin and turn to God, He fills me with a joy that no worldly thing can substitute. Not even my child. The more I let Him provide for me, I am more grateful and see all He has brought me through and blessed me with. I see that my fiancee or my son or my friends no longer have to be instruments to satisfy my self sufficiency…they merely enhance what and who God is in my life. I am not all the way there but day by day I die more to myself and my self- sufficiency. In return, I humble and submit to God more. Then blessings come, miracles manifest and I am always left with joy and peace even in the midst of my storm. Instead of every move I make being to satisfy me, it will be to praise God and His favor and blessings will shower me more abundantly, my soul will be saved and my seat in heaven will be more and more certain. God has more for me and as I turn myself and those I love over, I get to see some of His vision. I do slip ad stumble, and I am not all the way where I want to be, but I keep pressing. God left me His word, His Holy Spirit and His son Jesus Christ. He left me the tools of prayer, repentance and forgiveness. And He blesses me with His grace and mercy. These are all things I couldn’t do or give to my own altar, so I will continue to abandon self and chase after Kingdom and God wealth.